Fear
Fear is a very strong emotion. Fear of worry. Fear of anxiety. Fear of worthiness. Fears make us worry. We worry if we are going to be on time, if we are enough, if we are going to make it and so on. Fear is a creature we need to face head on and gather up the courage to go forward. To dare and go forward with the future.
Fear is an energy that drains all our energies. It is a thing to overcome. We all have fears so take the energies you have and face the fears. It won’t be easy at first but if something is not meant for you then watch for the signs to see what is right for you.
Let’s say you have an audition coming up. You start drowning in fears and worries. “I don’t know if I can go thru my audition.” Well, you won’t know if you don’t try. Try your best. Just get up and go do it. Don’t think of all the steps to get there. Just see yourself there. If it is meant to be then you have worried for nothing. If you just sit there and worry about the ‘what ifs’ then you will never know if you could have and then years down the road you will kick yourself for not at least trying.
I visited my grandparents in 1985, if I remember correctly, and a friend from school asked me if I would put in an application for a job where she worked. Now, at the time I lived in Ohio and the job was in Maryland. She said that she had referred the job to a couple of friends, and they didn’t show up. She didn’t want to look bad to her boss. She said that there were over a hundred people trying out for the job, so I didn’t have to worry. I had been a full-time mom since I left Maryland and that was about six years ago.
I went thinking I would just go in to do the interview and the tests just to see what would happen. No one was going to hire me because I didn’t have any work history in that field. It was for a data entry job. In I went, did the tests, slid through the typing test (which I figured I had failed miserably because I hadn’t typed since high school), and then promptly did the interview. She asked me where I saw myself in 5 years and I said, “Running the company”. Then I asked her, “When do I start?’ she said there were a lot of other people to interview, and she would call.
I told my friend, and she was happy that I went in. She told me that there were over one hundred applicants, so I didn’t have to worry. The next day I got a call from the lady, and she asked me, “How soon can you start?” I was in shock. I was scared to death when I went in there for the job and now, I was shaking, couldn’t hardly speak, and was afraid of what I had gotten myself into.
I asked if I could have a day or two to think about it and she said yes. I hung up the phone and instantly yelled for my grandmother. What was I going to do? I lived in Ohio with my 2 little kids, my boyfriend, and my apartment. I had nothing to lose but my miserable life there. I was on welfare, with no phone, no car, stuck in the apartment all the time with no job.
My grandmother came running to see what was wrong. She sat me down and we started talking. She said I needed to relax, and we would talk again the next morning. Within the next 3 or 4 days a house, job and car landed in my lap. I had been secretly asking for help to get out of the life I was stuck in and there it was. My grandparents and great grandmother helped me with my faith and to tell the fear to get behind me. I got my courage up to call my boyfriend and tell him what was going on. I told him that I was moving, please pack my things, bring them to me, and he could stay too if he wanted.
I was still bashful and just liked being the wall flower. Doing this took every ounce of courage that I had in my soul. It was a good move. I found out that I was good in the work force. I advanced quickly and I found out that my boyfriend (the kids’ father) did not like me out in the work force. He liked me at home, with no friends, taking care of my house, cooking, cleaning and being fat with no friends. So, I wound up making him leave. Talk about facing fears. I was terrified all the time, but I didn’t want to go back to the way things were before.
As the years have passed, I often think of my grandmother and great grandmother. They had faith in me. They have been gone for many years now but I still talk to them all the time and when I need that courage to face my fears, I ask them to be with me. I now have faith (I still backslide every now and then…lol) that ‘I can do whatever I put my mind to’. My grandmother used to say that to me all the time. And my great grandmother told me to stop being a doormat, to stand up for myself. I hear these words often and especially when something challenging comes up for me.
Fear and Faith are emotions and in the imagination. Fear is in the brain and Faith is in the heart. Feel the emotions of your heart. Have faith and know that things will work out for the best because things happen for a reason. If there is a job you want and you try your best, but you don’t get it, that’s ok. Spirit has something else in mind for you that will be even better. When the door closes, another one will open. Just have faith. Believe what is best for you is coming. Know you will get where you belong. Watch for signs and listen to your instincts.
Sometimes what we want is not what is best for us. Spirit knows, your spirit guide is here to help you and yes you have one. We all do. We usually have several, but our one spirit guide is with us from the start of our lives all the way to the end of this life. We will meet them on the other side. The others come when we need them, or they need to guide us during our lives. Talk to your spirit guide, they love that.
Imagine having a protector who helps guide you to your best life. But you keep ignoring them and keep landing in sucky jobs, bad relationships, friends that use you for their best interests and there is your protector just shaking their head. They send you signs to help guide you, but you know best (Not).
Just stop. Watch for their signs and have faith in them and leave the fear and worries behind because your spirit guides have faith in you so why shouldn’t you? Don’t just have faith in your spirit guide but have faith in yourself. Believe and know that you are better and have dreams which will help not just yourself but others as well.
Fear can be fleeting but Faith lasts. Fear is doubt but Faith is the greatest emotion because it is filled with Love. Love is the strongest emotion. Love gives us gifts that we need to live and grow on so we can share and help others with it. Give someone help with love and in return we receive gratitude. Sometimes it also gives us a new friend, a newly chosen family, and so much more because it is boundless.
In everything we receive gifts. Even during trying times. It is how we react that shows who we really are in that moment and what we need to learn in that moment for the future.
What are you afraid of? What would you like to face?